Little do you know that I still cry for you every night. it’s not that I want to, it’s not for show. After everything why can’t I forget you? I’m surrounded everyday by people who care about and truly love me and still, I feel empty inside, like you took a part of me when you left and I’ve been trying to get it back ever since. I know we were never meant to be, but was it so wrong of me to love you so much, is this what I deserve? How was it so easy for you to walk away and move on when i’m still stuck in that one moment from months ago? I Keep putting on the fake smile and strong act but when I’m by myself I break down. I try to replay our good memories over and over in my head so I won’t forget them., at firsts wanted to erase any memory of you.. But I can’t…you gave me so much to remember …you were my best friend. I know I can never tell you this, and will probably never even see or talk to you again, but I need to say it, and I realize you will never feel the same but I love you still…Everyone told me my heartbreak was temporary that I would get over it…then why does it still hurt just the same? Why do I still jump up at the sound of a txt message hoping that it’s you? And as much as i miss you, if we never talk or meet again I just want you to be happy even if I can’t be.
I keep wondering how you forgot me so easily when you’re all I can think about? Why am I the one suffering alone for this? I thought I was done crying,listened to everything my friends said about how rotten you are, agreed with them, but they didn’t know you like I knew you. They think it’s just a normal thing, girl falls for a douche situation, They called it. But they don’t know, why I fell for you, how sweet and kind and loving you were. Everyone says I’ll get over it eventually but it’s been months and I hurt just the same, cry just as much, and have the same sleepless nights…I actively close my mind off from thinking of you at times, it just feels like work, still keeps getting tougher each day and it’s taking a toll on me.
The Hamster Wheel: Love at the 99 Cent store...or something life that -
Love is a gimmick….a pick up line… something quick and convenient like an item on the dollar menu….in the microwave age of give me more for less…its almost as if anyone can get love at the 99 cents store…or something like that. Love no longer include graceful stares, holding hands, and flowers…for…
He walked away not looking back once.. and all I can do is beg him, watch him go, wait for him and hope he would come back…